I’ve been away for a bit, mostly because I’ve been working on streaming live on RUMBLE. I’m not sure I like it (ha!) but it’s been like a conversation with people, talking about issues that people care about, and even some they don’t. It’s helped me through one of the most odd times of my life, without the ridiculous terms and conditions Youtube and the main tech platforms who run our online lives and are the arbiters of agenda try to push.
I had a miscarriage in May 2023.
I didn’t even think I’d ever be pregnant let alone go through the rollercoaster of having everything going well for once, and a new path, then to lose everything.
In the span of 5 weeks, I lost my slave gig job (where I’d been for 10 years) a relationship with someone I thought I’d marry and then, finally, my baby.
I meant to write here the whole time I was going through the recovery and all the issues but I didn’t have anything else to say. My body recovered from surgery and I also focussed on making content (you can find) on Rumble. Will I talk about the miscarriage on a stream? Maybe. But I actually think I’d like to create a short book about it… Then possibly read some on a stream. The reason is that when it happens, there isn’t a lot of support or helpful websites etc. There aren’t many women who talk about it in a helpful way or give away ideas that could help someone else. Maybe I could do that. Not many people seem to talk about the guilt in the way that people feel it, not many sites seem to address all the embarrassing and horrible thoughts you have when you are going through something like this. And I’m not sure why.
But me? I’m not afraid to be embarrassed or judged at the horrible things I thought about my unborn fetus. I’m not scared to talk about the aftermath of a surgery where you have a fetus removed from your womb. Or what it feels like to have the person you wanted most in the world disappear because it was too much for him.
I wanted to catch you up, anyone who is reading this. And invite you to come over to my media channels. We can chat, we can play, we can bitch about life and current events. As I always say, watch it/read it on the john or on the train to work. Come and say hi.
https://odysee.com/@EverEdenAuthor:5
https://rumble.com/c/c-1708715
https://www.bitchute.com/channel/awU2boGS9eZ1/