Awks.

February 25, 2021 1:43 am Published by EverEden Leave your thoughts

I started using “awks” ironically. Now I use it like a tween on Tiktok.

I woke up wanting to read KOS. I’d been reading it to get reacquainted with the flow a few weeks ago as I prep to work on Book 3. During that time, I had an appointment with a health professional and during the consultation, they saw the cover of King of Spades and complimented it. We got to talking, and I gave them the copy when I left the office. Since then, I kind of forgot about what I was planning to do. I took another copy of the book with me today. I sat down, sent a few texts to friends and then I started reading to fill the time on my journey.

I could feel eyes on me. The train was packed so there were eyes everywhere. This isn’t unusual anyway, being alternative and also bullied at school etc, I know when someone is looking and I can mostly ignore staring. But now that I’m a fully grown woman, this feeling means someone drunk or high is wanting a confrontation, or it’s a man who doesn’t feel like being discreet while he’s checking me out. Guess which one this was? 😀

YAY.

A man at least 20 years older than me sitting across from me with scabby legs, sandals and a strange look on his face. His head was on the side, it looked like he was trying to read the cover of King of Spades, so I didn’t mind. But he kept staring after he’d done it so I smiled to be polite. He smiled at me and said something that sounded like “Interesting book, is it good?” So, I passed it across the aisle and let him read the blurb on the back. If he said it sounded cool, I was going to let him keep it. Why not wake up some normies to agent provocateurs and the NWO? 😛

He nodded and then looked up and started talking to me, I thought he’d ask if it was a good book or if I believed in “conspiracy theories.” He asked if I was Muslim(?)I answered no, and immediately thought, “shit, I don’t want him to have the book now. He thinks I want to talk to him.”

I’m happy to answer/discuss topics in the book etc not random personal ones to appease a bored guy on a train at 7am. He had rotten teeth that were greying between an overabundance of saliva when he spoke, and getting more spitty while trying to talk over the noise. His thinning hair was wayward when he leaned forward and he was holding KOS and asking where I’m from…one of my absolute pet hates. (more on this another time) I’m from this town, mate, this country. I cannot run down my ancestry for you in 3 secs just because you’re rude and assume I’m from somewhere else because I have pigment in my skin.

He liked my dress. He told me that he knew a man who was a “big, solid guy” who looked like me, not beautiful like me with my nice eyes and cheeks, but I reminded him of that guy, and that guy was from Portugal. Am I from Portugal? Have I been there lately? Other passengers were looking at us and giving me the “O Gawd, I feel sorry for you” eyes.

When we had to get a connecting train, I lost him and he had given my book back as we all stood to vacate. But he followed to the car I was in and sat a few people from where I was…

He had a few words with a transit guard before he got on, and was late to take a seat. So…he walked up to one of the few empty ones left and hit a woman with his empty shopping bag saying “Excuse me,  I need to sit there.” She had been dozing off…and when she realised what happened, she was not happy. She angrily said in a French accent, “Excuse me, you just hit me. Don’t you ever touch me again.”

He didn’t apologise, instead told her to stop being stupid. She repeatedly said it was rude, how dare he, he can’t put his hands on people or hit people. He sat next to her anyway, and then it became arguing. He was telling her to shut up and get over it, and she was saying that he was rude and it was unacceptable. When one of them finally STFU, the other would start again. Some people took out their phones to record the interaction, some people gave each other awkward glances, and nearly everyone stopped taking their phone calls or chatting to be able to listen. The guy appealed to the train, loudly proclaiming “this is stupid and she’s being ridiculous!”

The man beside me piped up and said “Actually, mate, I think you’re being really rude.”

Then when he left the train, a woman said “Bit of an overreaction.”

a few seconds passed…

Another passenger said, “I didn’t think so.”

Man next to me: “Thank you.”

Wtf just happened.

LOL I was like, “please please don’t ask my opinion.” Because he was an entitled, out of touch, weirdo from the start and she was obviously looking for a viral video or attention because she kept on and on even after he went quiet. And wtf was with the other passengers wanting their own discussion? I was going to make this post about thoughts on when is ok to step in and defend someone you don’t know and the consequences, thought process and go a little deep into your perceived obligations etc. I was going to write about the need to engage in some sort of human interaction and even confrontation because of the distances being put in place. But fuck going deep because… this was just bizarre…

 

 

 

*TLDR 

*guy was weird. 

*He hit a woman with his shopping bag to shoo her to the side so he could sit.

*They argued.

*I just wanted to get to my slave gig.

*It’s content. I need a week off. 😛

 

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