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June 23, 2022 2:30 am Leave your thoughts
Some blog posts have made it to TTS audio and vids on Youtube, Rumble and Odysee. They’re pretty rudimentary vids because I have little time to make them and because I don’t have more time to research decent editing software right now. I usually don’t care to show my face often, “gatekeeping my own hotness,” as they say. LOL I also don’t care to flash my image around because what I have to say matters more than what I look like.
Last year I gained and lost a beautiful friendship. One which frustrated me and made me laugh, gave me an opportunity to give someone else some relief in the life they were living. I didn’t lose the friendship because he and I fought or we lost touch. I don’t have him around because he died. In a few days, it will be his birthday. This time last year, he was telling me that I needed to send him a present or a card that could travel to the UK and fit in the slit in his door that functioned as a letterbox.
I took my time, I was busy, I couldn’t send anything, but I don’t feel guilty about that because when I finally did get around to sending him a card, it was the best timing it could have been. It was a couple of weeks before he passed away…and the joy it gave him, in that rough time, was more than I could have asked for.
I have since cried many times.
Grief is a motherfucker.
And grief is love with no longer a place to go.
It hits you out out nowhere and through words someone says, or your memory, or even a short film on YouTube. This short film breaks me every time. The accuracy is very hard-hitting. The first few weeks without messages from him on the way to work…
I’m worried the shitty vid won’t be at all near anything acceptable but I did it in one take because I couldn’t sit through a second.
Anywhooo it’s going up on the 28th.
Dedicated to Rob. The foxy stoat, himself.
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