The Last
March 10, 2022 5:58 pm Leave your thoughts
One of the last times I performed anywhere.
I’ve been a stage brat since I was 6. There is nothing like the moment before the music starts, or the curtain goes up, or you have to sing/say your first line. Live music and live theatre is so exciting. The lines are the same every night but everything is different every night. One night you step on stage a fraction of a second later. Your costume broke so you had to pin it tonight, you forgot a line and ad-libbed. You missed a dance step that night. You delivered a line with a different inflection because you were mid-burp. You were singing your solo and couldn’t take your eyes of the older man in the front row that was looking at all the lights in awe.
To live it is like flying or something. There is no feeling like it.
This photo ^^^ was a little less than a year before the Coof hit and the world went crazy. I like this picture because it shows I was singing to a decent-sized audience, I was happy, dressed up, and working with some talented people. It was a fun time. It had been a little while since I was in some sort of stage show at that point (about 3-4 years) or being involved in a production with a large cast/many performers. I hadn’t done much like it in my adult life either, this was a kind of variety show and the theme was songs from movies and each performance raised money for charities and people in need. 
There was a large group of actors spread across groups, working on their respective parts in corners and rooms of the venue, and the group numbers where we all performed together arranged around those practises. I liked the spectrum of ages across the cast and the friends I made. It was hard to cut a Wednesday from my training schedule at the dojo but I’d always promised myself that if I had to choose between a Krav or kickboxing session and theatre, I’d always choose theatre. Why? I love both of those hobbies/passions but performing feels like coming home to quench/hydrate/water the kid who started as a reindeer in a Christmas play, or the one that was Cinderella in the second grade in front of a couple hundred people.
There is nothing like standing in a group of your friends/fellow actors and singing…and it just comes together...your voices, the vibe, all of it. THERE IS JOY and FUN that no one really started, but all of you get to partake in and finish– and you have a great rehearsal that makes you feel energised, accomplished, excited and something you can’t put your finger on like there was a muse or something else unseen in the room.
There was even one part in particular, during a song (with 2 other girls for most of my performances besides my solo) where the melody/harmony split,,,and it gave me goosebumps every time. It sounded amazing…and I was contributing to this thing! Every time I performed it for an audience, I had to concentrate hard to deliver the notes at that part because I’d just want to giggle at how cool it was.
Singing and performing is a large part of what makes me tick. Lately, I’ve been feeling like I’m missing something…and I’m not sure I can be a member of a troupe or perform at the moment, due to restrictions and my DICKtator state premier. I’ve made enough memories to get me through this Rona BS and I’m hoping I can do some theatre soon.
TLDR:
*I’ve been a theatre/performance brat since age 6. Before all these talent shows on TV. (yes, I’m old.)
*I miss performing. *The last show I did was on my birthday in 2019.
*I hate my state premier. He is responsible for a lot of mental health issues in our population.
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